Bear Paw

地瓜球

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Bear II

mommy's boy

disconnected

feeling kinda disconnected lately
more precisely, i dont think i am "disconnected", but rather i am the "disconnector"
simply put, i just dont feel "connected"
in another word, im lacking the sense of "connection"
if you dont understand what im saying
u got it.. u know what i feel
on the other hand, if u think u get it
then im not so sure u do, coz ur preception might be different from what i expect, and u might be right or wrong
anyways

things have stayed the same
im the variable this time
i wouldnt expect ppl to get used to these changes
and i think i hav difficulty getting used to these changes myself
feeling kinda chaotic in the process
so ive delegated my subconscious mind to sort out the mess
hopefully the result would soon come up

i think its the contradiction btw logic and emotion
with new facts or knowledge, ones perception can change through logic
with emotion, the change can be either accelerated or halted
when introducing new ideas and removing old ideas, 2 sets of logic and emotion come together
while the logic of new idea might claim victory, emotion attached to the old idea is usually the one harder to overcome
we know that emotion in many cases can hinder proper logic (just think abt the last time u did somethings so stupid that u want to kill urself afterward)
i think most would agree that good logic = good, and bad logic = bad
so emotion causes bad logic, hence emotion = bad because emotion hurts logic

curiously, logic and emotion have a special connection
like any animal, we hav emotions
most emotions r pretty much hardwired in our brain, in another word, in our genes
some might be products of society, but we r born with the basic ones (anger sadness etc)
one of the most important driving force, is of course the desire for happiness, wutever that is..
note that this desire is biological, and it is there for the rest of ur life
so the quest for seeking happiness starts here
later, ppl discover that through logic and rationalization, we can maximize our happiness (like not to touch fire because its very hot, and very hot = hurt, and hurt = no happy)
of course, we can still learn by emotion through reflex (im thinking abt the experiment of someone getting zapped by one of many objects he can choose from), but its slower (u get zapped many times before u learn, and zapped many times = no happy)

so logic is a fast track to more happiness, since the desire for happiness is an emotion, it follows that logic helps emotion

as concluded above, logic helps emotion, while emotion hurts logic, which usually causes bad logic, and bad logic results unhappiness

in short, logic help emotion and emotion tries to kill logic all the time

so emotion is crazy but we cant change who we r

we can logically conclude that: we are driven by emotion, emotion is crazy, so we r driven by craziness

as human progresses, we use logic more and more
then we start to find out that some ppl seem too logical
they disect everything and break down every action into a cost-benefit analysis
ppl say this kind of ppl lack emotion
but doesnt logic help emotion? how can one be logical and not emotional?
being extremely logical is for someone who has a strong desire for happiness or emotion wants
thus being extremely logical is extremely emotional
logic is only a tool for emotion

hmm how did i get here
back to the topic..
some ppl say that i think too much or think too far
well i just want to be prepared
i think im just being logical
or should i say emotional?

globalization

ill writing an essay on globalization
wonder if anyone has put thoughts into it
need some inspiration or a thesis statement!
so if u got any idea, plz comment
thx!

its been 6 months since my last post
and its quite interesting looking back at the posts

alot has happened in this short period of time
alot more than i expected
as a result, i have revised my plan for good

I can go on and talk for hours abt wut i did in the summer but i think thats not wut u r looking for. What are you looking for? The reason u read my post is that u want to get sth out of it if im not mistaken. You may be hoping to get some inspiration for ur paper, amusement for long hrs of studying, or any other reasons, i dont know.

Now, lets expand the scope of the question to your life.


What are you looking for?


let me say it again.
What are you looking for?


Think about the things you must accomplish in your lifetime, or the lifestyle you desire.


Do you have an answer?

If you do, that's great, you already know where you want to go.


If not, you owe yourself an answer.
And no, its not OK if you don't have an answer.
It is a difficult question, but you know too well it's an important one.

I urge you to come up with your answer, starting right now.
You have put it off for more or less 20 years, it's about time you get it done.

regret

Why do we regret?

However rational we think we are, we can't help but regret for our action or inaction. 明明知道不能改變什麼,卻總把自己放到同一個處境. As though self-punishment is an involuntary behaviour built inside us. I think that is exactly it. From the surface, regretting seems like a useless emotion that serves no purpose but to put us in misery. From the Darwinian point of view, this can only decrease our chance of survival. Then why do we do it? It clearly wouldn't change anything.

One thing is particularly interesting. Say if you forgot to feed your pet, and it dies due to starvation. You would definitely feel remorse (provided that you like your pet), and wish you have done differently, like feeding it. This clearly wouldn't bring your pet into life (no, there is no miracle). Now consider a different scenario. If you forgot to feed it, but it managed to survive at the end by some freak coincidence, would you still feel bad? Probably not nearly as much. This kinda implies that we feel sorry for the things we lost, or the more pleasant alternative situation comparing to the present. Some people may feel sad for the poor dog, and not expressing any remorse is just not "right". But the subject is not specific, we can also feel regret over a burnt computer power cord. What is common is the fact that we feel like shit.

Perhaps this is just a learning mechanism. We only learn fastest if we experience pain either physically or mentally. We can think of regretting as a self-inflicted pain that we subconsciously impose on ourselves. Whenever a similar situation occurs, the pain is remembered, and hopefully prevents us from making the same mistake.

What if the mistake is so unique that it would not happen again ever? It probably means that there is no reason for regret.

This process of learning took me long enough already. So much for self-punishment, hopefully I have learned my lessons. For now, self-redemption might be more practical.